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stuck.
I feel like I’m stuck in a spiders web; defenseless and weakening with every moment spent struggling. I can see my worst nightmare advancing on me and yet I feel like there is nothing that I can do to stop it. The more I fight, the weaker I get but the less I fight, the quicker that I’ll meet my inevitable future. I’m stuck in the middle of two near impossible choices with nothing to do but wait…
"You can’t starve yourself indefinitely. Either you start to eat because your body and mind just can’t take it any more, someone else forces you to eat, or you die. It’s not a self-sustaining system.
Yet the alternative somehow seems worse. As torturous as the eating disorder is, life somehow feels worse. Life is messy. And painful. The eating disorder, while painful in its own way, is neat. It has a type of “payoff.” Starving made me feel better. Life… didn’t. I was good at an eating disorder but I sucked at life. I couldn’t quite figure it out."
Carrie Arnold, ED Bites (via nowtoknowitinmymemory)
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